Random thoughts

Sitting on the bench of my fears,
looking at open spaces filled with memories,
An unforgettable song keeping my mind occupied,
A smile from a stranger being observed from a distance,
loved ones holding each others hands to sustain their reunion.
suddenly a scent which lingers through the air triggers the mind,
making you believe that somethings don’t just fall behind,
they forever follow you like your own shadow,
constantly asking yourself whether the curse will carry on even tomorrow,
surely you’ve mistaken reality with fantasy,
repressed emotions don’t hide themselves for too long…
they get tired and the water from the bottle start spilling
you are forced to start talking.
taking a journey through memory lane,
trying to make sense with everything around you.
feeling so overwhelmed,suffocated by your own ignorance,
you need help….
yet you are too proud…
Your confusion keep you asleep like a lullaby
giving you nightmares that are made up of candies,
then you wake up in unfamiliar place
wondering how you got there…
then you remember,it was just a dream…
a dream which felt so real,
a dream which needs to be dealt with sooner.

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WAR

We are at war,
Armoured with only our voices,
A pen and paper our only weapon
Writing our stories,
Stories which will forever remain
within the heart that listen
We are artist,
Artist who paints pictures of reality
Just look closely
Allow your eyes to see the ugly truth that lies within.
Cultivating the soul with all beautiful things.
The picture holds no sympathy
It reveals its ruthless nature unconsciuosly
reflecting the complexity of the critical mind.
The artist doesn’t care about being admired
he only cares about sustaining the reality of his craft.
he is the Soldier
fighting an endless battle
a battle that has no victory
yet its occurrence is satisfactory
It had occurred for long time
taken everything I thought it was mine
made him innocent like a child
he do not know when it began
All he remember is the beautiful sun
The sun that exposed him unto his enemies
leaving them helpless
His craft is heartless
So much blood had been shed
Lots of lesson had been learnt
Inspiring strangers had been met
And he doesn’t feel reluctant to call them friends
They are his family which he never had…
They are his revelation he never anticipated
His words left him uneasy
leaving him in great suffocation
Pleading to find redemption
Then feeding his hunger with great expectations.

New start

Choices taken,
Tears have fallen,
Words have been spoken
hearts have been broken.
The betrayer is forgiven.
The long lost memories remembered
Till we meet again,
our path intersected
you became a lesson learned.
I hate you for teaching me to love,
the prophecies of unknown places
floating above the seas
reminding us of the pain we have experienced
A heartache that leave the soul with anger
yet the desire to feel you close burns me up until I surrender.
Ignorance became the cure of my confusion
I slept motionless listening to my screaming heart
Wanting something beyond my strength
I am tired of fighting…
this battle isn’t mine.
This is my new start…forgive me if I leave you behind.

Power

The world is saturated with things we cannot control
The ideology of power is held by the law.
then who makes this laws?
loss of power is a terrible loss for all human kinds,
everyday we wish to sail through any challenges
Forgetting that our power comes with a standard,
Float above the ocean of our pain and sorrows,
Ensuring that everyman evaluate us as being strong.
Are you strong enough to carry all your burdens?
Are you made our of steel?
Are you unbreakable?
really you need to think about yourself
Being selfish van be a virtue of better understanding
stop pretending and start acting.

A Part of me

A soft smooth melody fill the atmosphere,
making me feel at ease,
Experiencing the hardship to express our real feelings
The beautiful colour of the sun light up the room
silence captures our consciousness
through the midst of our emotions
We became one like the stars that glitter with pride at night,
I want you to understand me,
leave behind our differences.
Put yourself in my shoes,
Don’t be in my life
become a part of me.
Is that toom much to ask?
I want to teach you how to cherish little things,
Little things that has great meaning,
I want you to leave outside your skin
enjoy the gentle breeze made by the wind,
embrace the world with its natural forces,
searching for new possibilities
Smile at your own reflection without feeling any shame,
Walk barefoot, lie on the grass
accept that things will never be the same, yet your footprint will remain
on the sand of the unconscious, write your name on the sky
Dream all wonderful dreams. capture emotions that seems impossible to feel
Allow your senses to set you free from the darkeness of your sleep
Let us be one,understand the fundamentals of being loved.
Everyday I still miss u more.

This too shall pass

Life is dictated like changing seasons,
Lack of affirmation,
Hungry for love, being ruled by the current situation,
Loving someone is a mysterious condition,
Doing everything in your power to feel thee satisfaction.
This condition comes with fear,excitement,sadness and disappointments
If you don’t understand love, later it will kill you.
This too shall pass,
Our journey intersected,
we’ve done things under a bad influence,
trusted each other, believing we can close our emptiness
Forgeting that our actions will make us get lost in the wilderness.
I thought that bringing you into my life will bring happiness.
I was wrong, the mist have already fill the room.
My eagerness had push you away
Its strange that we both created debts
but now I’m the only person left to pay
The melody created by our body closure strikes me the most,
I’m too delicate and fragile for carrying all this load.
Who shall declare the deeds that we’ve done?
The lust of intimacy showen in your eyes
Keeps me restless at night,
I’m prepared to fight
Changing all my wrongs to right
Harvest time is near,
My heart is filled with so much fear,
I’ve left my farm unattended,
shed a tear to ease my heart
No man understand the theory of love.
I’ve made this bed, I shall sleep on it.
my soul is sick with this undefeated war,
guilt and remorse glow brightly on my skin,
He retain his power by me
You are cruel, got such a great impact.
My soul is troubled, bear with my weakness,
Now it is a time to feel soory for myself
our closure could easily be faded.
acceptance could be much help,
Letting go, embracing all lesson learnt.
This too shall pass.
This things do happen,
They might torture you to slavery
But you know how to regain your own glory,
This is just a rising point of your story
Time wiil feed your hunger,
Heartaches makes you stronger.

This life is a battlefield

As I stood firm upon these earth,
Reassuring myself that I’ve got all the tools,
the strength to conquer this dominant war
My heart filled with so much fear,
Pain lingers in my body veins
like I’ve been stabbed a thousand times with a spear,
I opened my ears so that I could hear,
the sound made by the beast,
only my eye could shed a tear,
The atmosphere invapourated unclear.
holding past memories I could not bear,
i don’t know where I will be at tommorow.
i’m tormented by the events that took place yesterday.
They’ve left me ushaken, left with nothing to say,
I’m taking a journey to a brutal battlefield
only God knows about my survival.
Putting everything I had on the line
Taking babysteps to reach the light,
fear of death, failure filled my soul.
Mother earth had told me the untold.
Striving to carry all the burden that my strength cannot hold,
Holding just the key of hope on my hands.
The woman who had carried me on her womb, gave me a valuable lesson.
A gift I cannot trade with anything else,
She promised to protect me, not forgeting valuable lesson taught by her
I’ll defeat this beast
Fight until I gain my freedom.

Simply Faded

I thought I knew this man next to me,
He gave my life a new meaning,
I stood motionless, watching him closely like a private investigator on duty,
Suddenly the unknown coldness rip every inch of the fabric of my consciousness,
Sending me into a bitter, sweet silence
I want to leave this madness
but my heart tells me to stay and enjoy the experience.
He was already gone a long time ago
but sitting next to me.
He simply faded like the wind that blows outside my window
Now I’m left alone to deal with my sorrows,
Yet he promised to be my everyday HERO
Now I just wonder why I still feel like you exist,
Though you lived only in my dreams,
Sometimes I convinced myself that you are forgotten,
Yet in silence, I think about you.
I find myself waiting, craving,wanting to be right next to you
However, your presence evoke all the pain you cost me.

Ignoring the roar inside me

That one steamy moment shared was riveting,
Your silent treatment ruffle my fantasy,
The distance between us sadden me,
Trying to retrieve back what you’ve told me.
Tired of feeling caught up into your nasty schemes.
Clearly got me during my moment of weakness.
Your touch become a lasting imprint on my skin like a tattoo.
Contaminated my mind with lies, I won’t forgive you.
Pleading to keep our love affair secretive
I am outspoken, your sedate personality is about to get screwed
The segment of our strong feelings trouble me,’
Wish it foresee delightful memories.
The roar inside me infuriated me,
Requires to be attended, listened and understood,
Sudden change happened simultaneously
Stirring tenderness feeling inside,
Behind spoken words there is a lot to hide,
Seeking a place to escape these difficult times.
I want him,I want him now.