Wherever we go
We still find each other
Though we remain broken colour wax crayons
We still colour our darkest hours apart with our love.
The space between our strange connection.
We found our comfort through the river which overflows with heartfelt memories.
All the shared kisses and tender touch consume me
Reawaken the desire that contains me
You summoned me to reach deeper into the depth of my longings.
Your closeness brought a pleasant shiver of my body.
Begging me to lose myself…be in the moment.
You know how to ignite the fire of love that burns inside me.
When I’ve tasted your sweetness to curb my thirst and hunger,
You became my secret habit.
I clung to you like a baby on his mother’s back.
I hated you and also loved you.
Please dont leave me,
Im not sure I can survive the agony of losing you again.
Im overwhelmed by the deep sited desire
The desire to dig deeper into your mind,body and soul.
What makes you tickle?
I want to know you better
You’re such a fascinating soul.
A mystery waiting to be exposed.
Tired of chasing your shadow
I want to know the real you.
Yet Im tormented by the fear to get closer
The ravenous hunger to love propels me to endure flames,
The burning passion that I see through your eyes
I am shunned for not speaking the truth
Remembering all private vacations I took when I was thinking about you.
My suitcase full of untold tales
heavy burden,packed neatly to hide the lonesome of my bleedibg heart
the chaotic scenes taking over my thought process
Chose to sit in silence
Admire you from a distance
Toy with your thoughts with pretence
Our ignorance offer sanity,
Again, our ego shall grant us the company we need.
Sitting on the bench of my fears,
looking at open spaces filled with memories,
An unforgettable song keeping my mind occupied,
A smile from a stranger being observed from a distance,
loved ones holding each others hands to sustain their reunion.
suddenly a scent which lingers through the air triggers the mind,
making you believe that somethings don’t just fall behind,
they forever follow you like your own shadow,
constantly asking yourself whether the curse will carry on even tomorrow,
surely you’ve mistaken reality with fantasy,
repressed emotions don’t hide themselves for too long…
they get tired and the water from the bottle start spilling
you are forced to start talking.
taking a journey through memory lane,
trying to make sense with everything around you.
feeling so overwhelmed,suffocated by your own ignorance,
you need help….
yet you are too proud…
Your confusion keep you asleep like a lullaby
giving you nightmares that are made up of candies,
then you wake up in unfamiliar place
wondering how you got there…
then you remember,it was just a dream…
a dream which felt so real,
a dream which needs to be dealt with sooner.
Constantly looking behind,
A fear of being followed bombard your mind,
releasing a troubling pain through your spine,
Getting anxious,wondering how you’ll feel if you caught his sight.
You know that he wouldn’t survive in hiding,
The promised made would be broken eventually,
You’ve brushed off his memories like dirt,
considered him meaningless
Yet he left behind a sentimental value which seems hard to forget,
You knew he was behind you all this time,
Denying and carry on like your mind is playing games,
called out his name…
suddenly realize something are hard to change,
you knew who he was all along,
The connection you both shared was so strong,
Treating him like a stranger was just a recovery mechanism which lasted for a short while
feeding your hunger for being with him with lies,
he became your darkest longing,
Your dirty secret which overrides your values and principles.
Making you vulnerable,
though he remained a guest in your castle,
but his arrival changes everything.
His reaction,your reaction becomes predictable,
you stumble and fumble
but at the end you are able to find each other,
you and your imagined stalker.