I FORGIVE YOU

I forgive you
for your lack of knowledge,
for your blindness which led me to hate,
treating me as a prisoner in my own place,
taking away my fate,
bearing the fruits which haunted my common sense,
leaving me feeling afraid,
showing me free flowing fountain which cleanse my innocence,
a sacred river which overflows with lifeless pleasure,
floated with limitless adventures.

I forgive you
for your careless mistakes which got me into trouble,
left me in so much debt of denial,
for your lack of consideration,
forcing me to react on impulse
letting the greatest opportunity of being true to myself to pass me by.

I forgive you
for your failure of understanding what I want…
for unleashing the darkest monster that live inside me,
for teaching me the distinction between pure love and lust,
for making me sleep on the bed adorn with shattered dreams
for walking with me through the path filled with thorns,
for making me beg for more
yet you knew that the implications of getting your poisonous affection
will gently activate my thoughts,
making the wrong to look right.

I forgive you
for wasting my precious time to deal with your foolishness,
for letting me explore the beauty of your uselessness,
for creating an impact which is meaningless,
for contradicting my values with your problems,
for holding my hand and pushing me to the limit
which made me the person I am today…
for being a fake friend which sugar coat lies with truthfulness,
for leaving me powerless,
a manipulative lover who do anything to boost his ego,
deeply stimulating his wickedness with beautiful music,
slowly captivating my mind unconsciously
being a guide which led me to unfamiliar places
places which showed superficial beauty
places which are beyond imagined
let alone pushing you to forget reality.

Mysterious Man

Silence filtered between us,
My mind wondering whether I’ve made a right decision,
The truth inside my heart share a different story,
Wondered who is this strange man by my side,
I thought I knew him, I was wrong.
Slowly the spirit of regret lingers through my soul,
Searching for the truth being untold.
Agreed to take a trip using different transportation,
Gave him the freedom to choose,
Both played a dangerous game, I don’t intend to lose
Sacrificed my time to understand this mysterious being,
Thinking about the day I’ve let him to become a part of my life,
A disguised character was formed inside me.
Ignorance was built within this walls between us,
Acting like everything is fine
while the foundation was in jeopardy to collapse,
Lost the assurance of trust we once possessed.
The silver cup is broken.
time to let go,
Explore other possibilities,
Accepting the color of my skin,
Defeated confusion without a fight,
My dear love you’ve lost me a long time ago.
Allow reality to sink in,
You cant keep on floating above the waters,
Hiding behind our ego’s is not helping,
Save yourself from getting affected form the disease of lies.
I’ve given you freedom therefore you shall enjoy it.