An Omen

I have left my doors open.
Cold wind sneaking in like a mice.
Carrying the gift of peace and distraction.
I have forgotten your warm embrace
Your charming smile.
You are just a faceless beast
Consumed with an appetite of my blood.
He carved his claws on my flesh
Awakening the deep sited desire of my fantasies.
Captivated by his luring spell
Fabricated underneath the sheet of deception.
Your pleasant scent that lingers through the room
Slowly fades away when you go back to live your other life.
Don’t beg me to conceal all the scars you have left on my skin.
There are sacred portrayals of our moments
An omen of what is meant to be….
In this particular love and war union.
I chose to love you with all your imperfections.
Behind closed doors…pleasure escalates to the peak
We indulge inĀ  cardiovascular activities.
Body sweating…heated bodies.
Commanding us to submit to the language of motion
Enslaved with deep darkest longings.
We danced to our own music
Sadly our wildest dream carries the burden of the past
Disguising the present with lies
Denying that the dark shadow of our bitter sweet secrets will haunt us in the future.

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Dear You

When silence comes crawling in our lives
A repressed memory is relocated within our present thoughts.
Words that never been said comes out sharply like a razor blade
An unforgettable picture becomes a constant reminder of our failure to succumb our differences.
Failue to embrace the naked truth hidden deeply in our hearts.
Build up a wall of ignorance between us
We treat each other likes strangers.
How can we let the beast to tear us apart,
Carry on with our live like nothing happened.
Left with no reason.
Allowed our lives to be dictated by changing seasons.
I cannot let things be…I can let go without a fight.
We can get through this melachony that torture us through the night.
Just give me a chance to make things right.
I just meed time to remove the beast from my sight,
One day we can dance under moonlight
Paint colourful memories through the night
Write your name amongst the stars
Make you mine.HOld you tight in my arms.
Promise you to be by your side
No matter how hard it can be…because I LOVE YOU.

I FORGIVE YOU

I forgive you
for your lack of knowledge,
for your blindness which led me to hate,
treating me as a prisoner in my own place,
taking away my fate,
bearing the fruits which haunted my common sense,
leaving me feeling afraid,
showing me free flowing fountain which cleanse my innocence,
a sacred river which overflows with lifeless pleasure,
floated with limitless adventures.

I forgive you
for your careless mistakes which got me into trouble,
left me in so much debt of denial,
for your lack of consideration,
forcing me to react on impulse
letting the greatest opportunity of being true to myself to pass me by.

I forgive you
for your failure of understanding what I want…
for unleashing the darkest monster that live inside me,
for teaching me the distinction between pure love and lust,
for making me sleep on the bed adorn with shattered dreams
for walking with me through the path filled with thorns,
for making me beg for more
yet you knew that the implications of getting your poisonous affection
will gently activate my thoughts,
making the wrong to look right.

I forgive you
for wasting my precious time to deal with your foolishness,
for letting me explore the beauty of your uselessness,
for creating an impact which is meaningless,
for contradicting my values with your problems,
for holding my hand and pushing me to the limit
which made me the person I am today…
for being a fake friend which sugar coat lies with truthfulness,
for leaving me powerless,
a manipulative lover who do anything to boost his ego,
deeply stimulating his wickedness with beautiful music,
slowly captivating my mind unconsciously
being a guide which led me to unfamiliar places
places which showed superficial beauty
places which are beyond imagined
let alone pushing you to forget reality.

I am Afraid

Afraid to look deep in your eyes
searching for the truth I do not want to hear
exposing,ripping and leaving my soul bare
a task left unattended to try and forget
leaving an intense feeling locked inside
taking away the peacefulness of nature
A melody that will always echo
making you lose control of yourself
A curse overshadows your judgement
fighting temptations
but deep you know that whatever you feel is beyond
your control….slowly fading the memories into the darkness
making me vulnerable,fragile and together we will shine
like diamonds as we dine under the stars
I don’t know whether this will last forever
you got a funny way to show me how you feel
teasing me and playing with my emotions
although I like it…I would like to know where I stand with you.
Tell me if you enjoy being a guest in my house
or you want to be my dearest friend.
I am afraid of what I will do with you
You just know how to control me unconsciously
making me think as if you are a necessity
What do you really want from me?
I gave you my all…why are you not responding
I guess you are feeling afraid like me.

Untouched surface

As I let the truth to surface,
Realized that Im setting myself free,
Changing the way I behave,stop choking me….
I want to breath the air of liberation.
You just add a dose of a lifetime celebration.
Change of season restore my sense of belonging,
Chose to unplug the root of infinite possibilities,
Confusion tied me up to prevent me from engaging in any movement.
Slowly the seed that was planted dies in a nurtured soil,
As ridiculous it may sound, haunted by a vivid image of ancient times.
played innocent like a small child
My isolated space becomes my refuge,
Tormented by the sweetness of my memories,
Suffocated myself with wasteful pretendence.
yet seeing the light through my darkest moments.
Change came knocking on my door,
thought I locked it but then came crawling slowly on the floor.
Enriched my troubled soul with so much hope,
My imperfections renew my common sense,
Who am I fooling?
My vulnerability was painted on my walls,
Immense beauty of my charm was reflected through my attitude.
I am just too different
Nobody understand me better than him….
My past became an untouched surface
Yet today I still relate to the person I was ten years ago.
God had just nurtured the seed planted in me,
during spring time I decide to blossom so care-free.

A Part of me

A soft smooth melody fill the atmosphere,
making me feel at ease,
Experiencing the hardship to express our real feelings
The beautiful colour of the sun light up the room
silence captures our consciousness
through the midst of our emotions
We became one like the stars that glitter with pride at night,
I want you to understand me,
leave behind our differences.
Put yourself in my shoes,
Don’t be in my life
become a part of me.
Is that toom much to ask?
I want to teach you how to cherish little things,
Little things that has great meaning,
I want you to leave outside your skin
enjoy the gentle breeze made by the wind,
embrace the world with its natural forces,
searching for new possibilities
Smile at your own reflection without feeling any shame,
Walk barefoot, lie on the grass
accept that things will never be the same, yet your footprint will remain
on the sand of the unconscious, write your name on the sky
Dream all wonderful dreams. capture emotions that seems impossible to feel
Allow your senses to set you free from the darkeness of your sleep
Let us be one,understand the fundamentals of being loved.
Everyday I still miss u more.

This too shall pass

Life is dictated like changing seasons,
Lack of affirmation,
Hungry for love, being ruled by the current situation,
Loving someone is a mysterious condition,
Doing everything in your power to feel thee satisfaction.
This condition comes with fear,excitement,sadness and disappointments
If you don’t understand love, later it will kill you.
This too shall pass,
Our journey intersected,
we’ve done things under a bad influence,
trusted each other, believing we can close our emptiness
Forgeting that our actions will make us get lost in the wilderness.
I thought that bringing you into my life will bring happiness.
I was wrong, the mist have already fill the room.
My eagerness had push you away
Its strange that we both created debts
but now I’m the only person left to pay
The melody created by our body closure strikes me the most,
I’m too delicate and fragile for carrying all this load.
Who shall declare the deeds that we’ve done?
The lust of intimacy showen in your eyes
Keeps me restless at night,
I’m prepared to fight
Changing all my wrongs to right
Harvest time is near,
My heart is filled with so much fear,
I’ve left my farm unattended,
shed a tear to ease my heart
No man understand the theory of love.
I’ve made this bed, I shall sleep on it.
my soul is sick with this undefeated war,
guilt and remorse glow brightly on my skin,
He retain his power by me
You are cruel, got such a great impact.
My soul is troubled, bear with my weakness,
Now it is a time to feel soory for myself
our closure could easily be faded.
acceptance could be much help,
Letting go, embracing all lesson learnt.
This too shall pass.
This things do happen,
They might torture you to slavery
But you know how to regain your own glory,
This is just a rising point of your story
Time wiil feed your hunger,
Heartaches makes you stronger.