Searching for the truth

Letting myself to drift in my deepest thoughts,
Looking at the pictures painted in front of me,
remembering the time wasted searching for the truth,
Admitting that I was a fool for letting you back into my life.
letting you to be part of the jury.
Being punished for the mistakes I didn’t do intentionally.
yet I held myself responsible,
hoping that’s a solution for your inner troubles.
No longer keen to find justice
I’m taking all the blame,
The pain I feel is just the same,
Nothing you can say or do that can change.
For I was giving you the freedom your deserve,
You’ve decided to take more than your bargain for…
If I was born from royalty,I would call you My Lord.
pain and suffering you brought in my life made me stronger.
I gave you all the power to dictate me
you might as well close the door behind you.
I may be seen useless through your eyes
I still have my soul to live for…
I owe that to myself.
Searching for the truth will leave my soul unsatisfied
therefore this time I’m searching for myself
I’m not trying to be selfish
but I need to take this journey so that peace would shine through my life.