We are never ever getting back together

I remember the bitter sweet taste of your lips when we kissed.
The lie you told when you said I was the only one

The forced laugh you uttered when I confronted you.

Your charming eyes drew me closer to the whirlpool of your narcissistic nature.

A confusing love portion which made me to see the saint in you. 

Drowned deeply into the darkest parts of your troubled soul. 

Normalized all your shortcoming because I was so forgiving and understanding.

Making promises that didnt materialize.

Truth be told…I am a sucker for cold hearted lover.

I was convinced that you came into my life with a bundle of hope and happiness.

I failed to notice the devil in you.

I am dealing with the injustice of your theatrical show you pulled when I was at my lowest.

Please dont come back with your excuses that you are now I changed man.

You admit your shortcomings and you are willing to do things right.

There is nothing to amend,

Thank you for bringing out the worst in me.

Thank you for changing me

Now I know the devil doesnt have horns and a tail.

The real devil is right here standing next to me.

Breathing the air that I breathe.

FORGIVE THY SELF

Forget the tragedies which makes you bitter
Overcome the odds of breaking your heart once again
Remember your past mistakes, learn from them
Give yourself time; don’t be hard on yourself
Invest your energy on things which will yield beneficial results
Valuable lesson are learnt through heartbreak and failure.
Eliminate threatening situations

Take care of your heart
Hold on to your intuitive eye; it’s a precious gift
You shouldn’t give up

Seize this opportunity before it is too late
Embrace all your faults and virtues
Live your life to the fullest
Fulfil your heart desires; your happiness is your responsibility.

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New You

I chose to paint you with a different brush.

Associate you with a new identity.

a new image intensified with a new meaningful passion.

You had followed a disgraceful path.

Your eyes reflect the harsh realities of your past.

Let me guide you to a promised land,

a place of love and peace

You’ve been broken for such a long time.

You have forgotten the sweet sounds of blessings.

Small things which gives great pleasure

The cacophony which dwells inside your mind shall be evicted by pleasing thoughts.

You fail to recognize the existence of love and happiness.

You are preoccupied with depressing events.

with quietness and acceptance

The disturbing thoughts get easily swayed by the wind.

Allow pleasing thoughts to drive you forth

Be the guardian of your thoughts

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Sometimes in life we tend to ignore the truth because of its bitter taste and we forget that the truth lessen the burden of living life with depressing thoughts. Sometimes its fine to feel sad or angry. Allow yourself to go through those emotions now rather than dealing with them later when its too late.

P.s Life is a mixture of happy and sad memories.

Ghosts

Some ghosts are not easily laid to rest.

They decide to exhume without warning,

exposing their existence uninvited.

Especially when you begin to enjoy your peace.

Although you have buried them deeply underneath the rocks of concrete.

They refuse to stay there.

Then they come banging at your door

Expecting a warm welcome.

Even though you chose to leave the door locked

They find a way to come back

sneaking, peeling off the layers of the concrete

They are like terrorist with a mission to destroy.

Carrying an atomic bomb filled with hostility.

They know nothing but war.

Obedience is marked by death

Serving a higher purpose

Who is their Master?

they thirst for blood, pain and despair.

Your downfall gives them great pleasure.

Do not fell threatened

You are not entirely alone.

You are protected by the most powerful, most loving and most caring being.

The past always haunts us especially if there are feelings which you haven’t dealt with during that time. Letting go is not easy hence it takes time. Therefore, everyday I give myself time to reflect back and try to find a way to forgive myself for the things I could have done differently thus embracing the lessons which comes with it. This is a journey. Forgive yourself and be thankful you are given a second chance which is the present moment.

P.S You are beautiful and strong.

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Farewell my wild one

Somewhere between the past and the present.
Rests memories of broken promises, deceit and disappointments.
Deep darkest secrets and events that occured behind closed doors.
Laughter which echoes with melancholy rumbles.
Watchful eyes looking for hidden agendas.
Waiting for the prophecy  of back stabbing to unfold.
Most definitely we are animals.
We are confronted with insecurities of our making.
The discomfort to witness the stimuli keeps the beast on the leash.
Truth be told.
The mutual interest built with nothing but hostility.
Suffocating the rationality of breaking all the ties.
Crashing down the intended deal.
Leaving behind a sweet taste of vengeance.
Karma arrived early.
I should probably thank you for being the wild one.
However you were nothing but a dream.

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I am wide awake….your time has ended.
You only exist through the darkness
Thus you cannot be recognised explicitly
You will remain obscure like a graffiti painting on the wall.

P.S. Thank you.

In the middle of nowhere, somewhere

In the middle of nowhere, somewhere
Relinquish with hatred
Comforted by numbness,
Heart pumping blood of melancholy
Taken back by his ignorance
Disgusted by his pretence
Hate cannot explain the resentment I feel for him
His presence is overdressed with so much agony
I don’t know whether I could forgive him.
He had become a repressed memory I do not want to remember nor bring out through the unconscious
If I had a pistol manufactured by intelligent men who knows how to hypnotise a person into believing that there’s no purpose of living.

I am wounded by his persistence towards making me angry
Forcing me to confront the beast that lives inside me
I thought I have put it to sleep
You get the pleasure from dictating my emotions
Adorning my soul with bitterness.
Deceived to believe that I am in charge
Unfiltered thoughts of hostility torture me
Take away my inner peace.
Oh God teach us to forgive those who hurt us
They do not know what they are doing.

I FORGIVE YOU

I forgive you
for your lack of knowledge,
for your blindness which led me to hate,
treating me as a prisoner in my own place,
taking away my fate,
bearing the fruits which haunted my common sense,
leaving me feeling afraid,
showing me free flowing fountain which cleanse my innocence,
a sacred river which overflows with lifeless pleasure,
floated with limitless adventures.

I forgive you
for your careless mistakes which got me into trouble,
left me in so much debt of denial,
for your lack of consideration,
forcing me to react on impulse
letting the greatest opportunity of being true to myself to pass me by.

I forgive you
for your failure of understanding what I want…
for unleashing the darkest monster that live inside me,
for teaching me the distinction between pure love and lust,
for making me sleep on the bed adorn with shattered dreams
for walking with me through the path filled with thorns,
for making me beg for more
yet you knew that the implications of getting your poisonous affection
will gently activate my thoughts,
making the wrong to look right.

I forgive you
for wasting my precious time to deal with your foolishness,
for letting me explore the beauty of your uselessness,
for creating an impact which is meaningless,
for contradicting my values with your problems,
for holding my hand and pushing me to the limit
which made me the person I am today…
for being a fake friend which sugar coat lies with truthfulness,
for leaving me powerless,
a manipulative lover who do anything to boost his ego,
deeply stimulating his wickedness with beautiful music,
slowly captivating my mind unconsciously
being a guide which led me to unfamiliar places
places which showed superficial beauty
places which are beyond imagined
let alone pushing you to forget reality.

Unresolved issues of the past

Sweeping them off like dust which appears in places less attended,
Trying hard to hide them away
yet they are most likely to arrive without any invitation,
A scar which remained behind
will always triggered the mind with memories.
memories which the heart desire to forget,
whilst the mind chose not to listen.
Unresolved issues of the past
I cannot underestimate your will to possess my mind,
you refused to be buried,
You chose to be right there beside me like a shadow,
Following me everywhere I go…
rationality was never your friend,
causing trouble in life is your biggest achievement.
Until we’ve made peace with our quarrel
You will always remain my guest.
And I would be please to be at your service…
I am tired of fighting you
You occurred for a reason
You’ve given me a hell of a nightmare
But this time
I’ve learnt to stand tall like redwood
looking closely at my reflection on the mirror.
allowed reality to sink in,
realized that I am greater than what you thought,
Kingdom rise and fall
My fall is my victory
I have gained the strength of being true to myself,
my rise is my loss
For the eye will not see what lies beyond measure.
yet it claims to see all…
I refuse to enjoy the calmness of living life with less conflict,
Bitterness is the counterpart of sweet,
therefore the armor of appreciation
will help me grow to be a responsible being,
I have to accept the unexpected
be grateful for everything God had given me.