01/03/2016

Just stay there
You are a memory to be forgotten.
A forlorn depiction hanging on a wall.
stood still with so much life
Dead through the eyes of the ignorant
Burning vigorously with an invisible passion.
Hiding the lonesome celebration of our hearts.
Supressing any stimulus which might led us to remember.
All the pleasant moments we shared.
Dont you dare say another word?
The sound of your voice carries a dark spell.
It is a destruction
It is my weakness
Will you trade your everyday occupation for being a mute actor?
Let my eyes do the admiring
Let my hands do the inspection
You are such a beautiful artistic being I would like to study
Fascinating indeed.
Let me first speak to your creator.
Then I will learn how to deal with you.

Inner self

We are so preoccupied with a lot of things in our lives.Have you ever wondered,how will you feel if you were being locked up in a room for five hours with only a bed,a picture frame of yourself,the mirror and a bed.I bet you were going to feel frustrated and bored.The need to do something was going to drive you insane.But why don’t you utilize that peaceful time for self-reflection or self introspection.It’s like we are so afraid of ourselves.We feel better if we are consumed with various activities.The thought of being alone,doing nothing and staring at our own reflection on the mirror is taken over by fear.We are so afraid to deeply search within ourselves our inner being because we have this assumption that the past is dead.It is not healthy to dig deeper because we are so afraid to open old wounds.I agree that we all have repressed some of ourĀ  past memories for various reasons but psychologically repression is not healthy.How can we conquer our fears if we don’t get in touch with the very first stimuli which made us to be fearful in the first place.Recently I have taken a conscious decision which is setting up a date with myself.During the date,I’m going to do nothing and I am going to walk away from being conscious of my environment and dig deeper to my inner self.I can actually hear my inner self screaming for help.I have been avoiding her for such a long time and I believe that if I listen to her more.I will find inner peace.Its not a crime to fulfill your inner self wishes but don’t be hard on yourself if you do not reach the highest level of peacefulness.Oh yes….you are going to feel all sort of emotions when you make a date with yourself.its okay if you wanna cry,scream or jump around but try doing breathing exercises and remember you are in charge of yourself.

Love

Maditjhaba

I am Afraid

Afraid to look deep in your eyes
searching for the truth I do not want to hear
exposing,ripping and leaving my soul bare
a task left unattended to try and forget
leaving an intense feeling locked inside
taking away the peacefulness of nature
A melody that will always echo
making you lose control of yourself
A curse overshadows your judgement
fighting temptations
but deep you know that whatever you feel is beyond
your control….slowly fading the memories into the darkness
making me vulnerable,fragile and together we will shine
like diamonds as we dine under the stars
I don’t know whether this will last forever
you got a funny way to show me how you feel
teasing me and playing with my emotions
although I like it…I would like to know where I stand with you.
Tell me if you enjoy being a guest in my house
or you want to be my dearest friend.
I am afraid of what I will do with you
You just know how to control me unconsciously
making me think as if you are a necessity
What do you really want from me?
I gave you my all…why are you not responding
I guess you are feeling afraid like me.