Inner self

We are so preoccupied with a lot of things in our lives.Have you ever wondered,how will you feel if you were being locked up in a room for five hours with only a bed,a picture frame of yourself,the mirror and a bed.I bet you were going to feel frustrated and bored.The need to do something was going to drive you insane.But why don’t you utilize that peaceful time for self-reflection or self introspection.It’s like we are so afraid of ourselves.We feel better if we are consumed with various activities.The thought of being alone,doing nothing and staring at our own reflection on the mirror is taken over by fear.We are so afraid to deeply search within ourselves our inner being because we have this assumption that the past is dead.It is not healthy to dig deeper because we are so afraid to open old wounds.I agree that we all have repressed some of ourĀ  past memories for various reasons but psychologically repression is not healthy.How can we conquer our fears if we don’t get in touch with the very first stimuli which made us to be fearful in the first place.Recently I have taken a conscious decision which is setting up a date with myself.During the date,I’m going to do nothing and I am going to walk away from being conscious of my environment and dig deeper to my inner self.I can actually hear my inner self screaming for help.I have been avoiding her for such a long time and I believe that if I listen to her more.I will find inner peace.Its not a crime to fulfill your inner self wishes but don’t be hard on yourself if you do not reach the highest level of peacefulness.Oh yes….you are going to feel all sort of emotions when you make a date with yourself.its okay if you wanna cry,scream or jump around but try doing breathing exercises and remember you are in charge of yourself.

Love

Maditjhaba

New start

Choices taken,
Tears have fallen,
Words have been spoken
hearts have been broken.
The betrayer is forgiven.
The long lost memories remembered
Till we meet again,
our path intersected
you became a lesson learned.
I hate you for teaching me to love,
the prophecies of unknown places
floating above the seas
reminding us of the pain we have experienced
A heartache that leave the soul with anger
yet the desire to feel you close burns me up until I surrender.
Ignorance became the cure of my confusion
I slept motionless listening to my screaming heart
Wanting something beyond my strength
I am tired of fighting…
this battle isn’t mine.
This is my new start…forgive me if I leave you behind.

Pieces of the puzzle

I shall travel this road fearless,
Carrying only hope in my luggage
with a purpose of finding the pieces of the puzzle.
I can’t go on without them
I gotta see the complete picture,
The picture that would lead me to my destiny.
As I am walking on this journey
I realised the core purpose of finding the lost pieces,
Got no time to waste,
I shall not lose faith.
I am powerful beyong measures.
God had restore greatness inside me.
I shall appreciate the gift he has given me.
Deep inside me lies greatness
Finding it root, would be the beginning of unleashing great things.
the beginning of finding my own happiness.
It is only “HIM” who knows my purpose of existence.
Don’t underestimate the darkness
It will always mess aroung your happiness
But choose to be happy because you have God on your side.