Even on the present day
He remained a prisoner of her thoughts.
She longed for him.
A long lost friend from childhood.
Foolishly sending butterflies through her stomach.
Remembering all the times they’ve spent together.
Leaving a soothing;warm feeling in her troubled soul.
She wont stop searching for him.
Wanting to feel his presence.
A perfect masterpiece belonging in her wildest dreams.
Fragments of bitter sweet memories collide to produce a beautiful collage.
Sending chills through her body
Shivering with deep darkest desires.
To taste his sweetness once more
Although she engage herself in detached mere infatuations.
No man can fill up the void she feels.
She needs him now more than ever.
Anxiety rails through her forced smile
Childlike giggles formed with strange men.
It is such a pity….that their attempt to love her are meaningless.
She loves one man.
And that man it is him.
She feels so lost.
Lost in dark alleys leading to unattended feelings.
Feelings of the past,slowly exposing their existence when she tries to ignore the voice inside her.
Telling her not to give up.
Her prince charming is waiting for her.
But it seems forever
However…she still sees his tender face vividly in her dreams.
She has hope that one day
They will be together.
The path she always dream about lead to him;no one else.
I chose to paint you with a different brush.
Associate you with a new identity.
a new image intensified with a new meaningful passion.
You had followed a disgraceful path.
Your eyes reflect the harsh realities of your past.
Let me guide you to a promised land,
a place of love and peace
You’ve been broken for such a long time.
You have forgotten the sweet sounds of blessings.
Small things which gives great pleasure
The cacophony which dwells inside your mind shall be evicted by pleasing thoughts.
You fail to recognize the existence of love and happiness.
You are preoccupied with depressing events.
with quietness and acceptance
The disturbing thoughts get easily swayed by the wind.
Allow pleasing thoughts to drive you forth
Be the guardian of your thoughts
Sometimes in life we tend to ignore the truth because of its bitter taste and we forget that the truth lessen the burden of living life with depressing thoughts. Sometimes its fine to feel sad or angry. Allow yourself to go through those emotions now rather than dealing with them later when its too late.
P.s Life is a mixture of happy and sad memories.
I am too afraid to open up my window curtains because the sun rays might expose the wounds of yesterdays regretful passion. Your strokes left behind scars. I guess your are a dangerous beast with claws.
It’s easier when you remain unknown,
A ghost only visible to me.
You are a secret I intent to keep forever.
Though sometimes your presence is felt in public spaces.
Faceless but I can recognize you from miles away.
You left an imprint in my mind.
Reminding me about your double life.
At night you’re just a glittering star,
During the day you are the sun radiating your multifaceted nature.
You are just a scent that lingers with the wind.
Caught all my attention
My sensation…awakening the dead, forgetful memory I chose to repress.
You are just another skeleton in my closet.
Waiting to be freed from the cage I have put you in.
Get exposed while you are in hiding.
I shall hide you in my canvas
An abstract piece of art.
Priceless…your identity will remain obscure.
I just love your ambivalent nature
Sometimes cold, sometimes hot
You are my secret creation.
Just remain that way.
A code known by only me,
Your beauty I preserve can’t be shared.
You are a high profiled secret
My secret admirer.
Take me back to our teenage love,
I want to hear the purest sound of our heart beat.
Beating as one…..drawing ourselves closer to our dream
a dream once shared…..memories we have created.
I want to get lost in your eyes
I want to feel the innocence of our passion
The stolen moments which still lingers in my mind
let me write your name amongst the stars
Hold you tightly under the moonlight
Becoming captivated by your undying scent of your cologne.
Every hour spent with you
I will forever cherish in my heart
I wish you nothing but the best.
Caress my body with those strong gentle hands of yours
Ignite the deepest longings I’ve hidden for so long
sensual longings that are beyond the reach of human thought
feed this unbearable appetite of love with your charm
I dare you hold a little longer
Do not feel discourage by the changing seasons
life is a mixture of everything
Thank you for making me feel so alive,
remembering the agonizing thoughts of yesterday,
teaching me to embrace all the shortcomings that comes with life,
Everything I thought I knew about you it had faded away like a repressed thought,
You had become an unattended event of the past,
Shared a rehearsed conversation to hide our true feelings,
our superficial fronts follows us like haunted ghost
wrapped with unbearable desires
yet we shut ourselves out of the lustful cocoons
memories we have created are not forgetful dreams
Only if I can hear the liberating melody of my beating heart,
I will understand the message from that one last kiss you gave me
interwoven with good farewells,
promising all the best for the lonely journey we chose to embark…
A kiss which imprint my soul with forbidden pleasures,
slowly evoking the wickedness that lies behind those eyes of yours,
Sinful pleasures that promise to quench my thirst for love,
searching for the truth inside your lies,
tension caving in, building a wall between us.
making us known strangers
exiled by our egos,
Seeking new ways to heal the pain
Your silence overflows with profound revelations.
Now I truly understand why you were part of my past not my future,
you were an obstacle which deprived me to reach my full potential.
BUT NOW I HAVE LET YOU GO
I am more than happy
I am free….
Our minds are clustered with tormenting thoughts
Memories entrenched in our DNA
Haunting us until we lose our inner peace
Can the mind perpetuate the stillness of the universe?
Listen to the music which generate no taste, no colorant genre, no tune
Do you walk away from the pain of disappointments or carry on like nothing matters
Really the urge of embracing the high level of inner peace is the justice we owe it to ourselves.
Let the dying of each season become a part of us
Beginning of new chapters
Though it brings unbearable pain of laughter
We ought to break free from our own cocoons of ignorance
Pulling us away from reaching the highest level of self
Letting the energies buried inside our souls to give new meanings of our existence,
Never underestimate the innermost tranquility of time.
Remember nothing last forever,
We are all puppets bred with genetics of individuality
Your uniqueness doesn’t make you different from the rest.
You are just given an opportunity to learn and embrace your full potential
Let some part of you to die…keeping the entire bunch is not worth it
There’s a reason why they are not part of you.
Dying is the rebirth of the better.
Somehow the meeting we had last night
left me with the injustice of my unsatisfied heart.
My mind remembering every event
that took place like my favourite movie,
Every scene being rewinded, feeling the exact emotions,
left me aflame fire burning to resemble the uniformity of loving someone unconditionally.
I hate you for letting me explore the goodness of being held for a long time.
I know that tommorow thats the only only things I would be thinking about…
Losing my concentration.
Now I understand the reason why I keep coming back for more,
even though we affirm ourselves that we gonna behave
for the sake of respecting social norms,
Yet here we are…touching,cuddling up,praising the silence of the night.
Acting like we are the only human alive,
We care less about the consequences of our actions.
Find it hard to resist the temptations,
Sometimes I find myself geting lost into your eyes.
Fantasizing about what we will do if we were lost in the garden of Eden.
The nature that surrounding us would have something to say,
Everytime your presence stir my imagination
which is embedded with curiosity.
Producing an effect only known by me.
Don’t let me question the love I have for you….
Can you heart the beating of my heart,
Perhaps you do not understand the language spoken
Allow me to translate but rest assured it will occur now until dawn.