Untouched surface

As I let the truth to surface,
Realized that Im setting myself free,
Changing the way I behave,stop choking me….
I want to breath the air of liberation.
You just add a dose of a lifetime celebration.
Change of season restore my sense of belonging,
Chose to unplug the root of infinite possibilities,
Confusion tied me up to prevent me from engaging in any movement.
Slowly the seed that was planted dies in a nurtured soil,
As ridiculous it may sound, haunted by a vivid image of ancient times.
played innocent like a small child
My isolated space becomes my refuge,
Tormented by the sweetness of my memories,
Suffocated myself with wasteful pretendence.
yet seeing the light through my darkest moments.
Change came knocking on my door,
thought I locked it but then came crawling slowly on the floor.
Enriched my troubled soul with so much hope,
My imperfections renew my common sense,
Who am I fooling?
My vulnerability was painted on my walls,
Immense beauty of my charm was reflected through my attitude.
I am just too different
Nobody understand me better than him….
My past became an untouched surface
Yet today I still relate to the person I was ten years ago.
God had just nurtured the seed planted in me,
during spring time I decide to blossom so care-free.

A Part of me

A soft smooth melody fill the atmosphere,
making me feel at ease,
Experiencing the hardship to express our real feelings
The beautiful colour of the sun light up the room
silence captures our consciousness
through the midst of our emotions
We became one like the stars that glitter with pride at night,
I want you to understand me,
leave behind our differences.
Put yourself in my shoes,
Don’t be in my life
become a part of me.
Is that toom much to ask?
I want to teach you how to cherish little things,
Little things that has great meaning,
I want you to leave outside your skin
enjoy the gentle breeze made by the wind,
embrace the world with its natural forces,
searching for new possibilities
Smile at your own reflection without feeling any shame,
Walk barefoot, lie on the grass
accept that things will never be the same, yet your footprint will remain
on the sand of the unconscious, write your name on the sky
Dream all wonderful dreams. capture emotions that seems impossible to feel
Allow your senses to set you free from the darkeness of your sleep
Let us be one,understand the fundamentals of being loved.
Everyday I still miss u more.

Self Actualization

I’m afraid to cross that border between my past and future,
I have buried the hatchets
Simply living my life in harmony,
I do not need the next party to justify my own happiness.
I’ve taught myself to embrace the essence of oneness,
I’m not trying to be ignorant,
I am accepting the correlation factors of my independence
No need to argue with the next person about your uniqueness
though he might find it strange.
You understand it perfectly well.
I don’t feel depressed when I fall,
I trust myself that I wiil recover, regroup and carry on,
My life evoke mixed emotions like a classical song,
Created with lots of tunes, melodies that are blended so perfectly
like my cup of coffee,
A song without words, yet easy to be understood.
Building a strong foundation of the awareness of my emotions,
Keeping me sane while I’m troubled by this world pain.
Slowly healing my internal wounds
No need to see a doctor,
Acceptance, perseverence will do its wonders
Enchant my soul with everlasting magic,
I don’t curse the sun for rising everyday
I feel disappointed on myself for not achieving those little goals
that felt meaningless at the time
yet very important at this present moment,
baby steps will eventually get me there…
reaching the peak of my self actualization process keeps on occuring without an end.

The injustice of the mirror

There she is…standing infront of a mirror,
Looking at her reflection with intense eyes,
cursing the reality under her breath,
Wondering what would it be like if a little inch of her body was reduced,
Choosing an outfit took forever,
Time is not on her side.
Her thoughts are fighting the injustice of the mirror,
She is tempted to cancelled her date,
but she doesn’t want to disappoint the heart that asked her so generously,
She is so blind to realize the beauty that lies within herself,
Slowly observing the scar under her breast,
Wishing it never been there….
It reminded her of the tragedy that occurred during her teenagehood,
She tries to sweep away this disturbing thought with a smile,
Hearing her pounding very loudly,
Taking a deep breath, allowing the scent of her perfume to unleash her cheerful mood,
From a distance she could see her mother smiling at her, telling her how beautiful she looked….
Suddenly chose the dress, arrange her accessories,
eventually she was out of her room with a positive state of mind.

Simply Faded

I thought I knew this man next to me,
He gave my life a new meaning,
I stood motionless, watching him closely like a private investigator on duty,
Suddenly the unknown coldness rip every inch of the fabric of my consciousness,
Sending me into a bitter, sweet silence
I want to leave this madness
but my heart tells me to stay and enjoy the experience.
He was already gone a long time ago
but sitting next to me.
He simply faded like the wind that blows outside my window
Now I’m left alone to deal with my sorrows,
Yet he promised to be my everyday HERO
Now I just wonder why I still feel like you exist,
Though you lived only in my dreams,
Sometimes I convinced myself that you are forgotten,
Yet in silence, I think about you.
I find myself waiting, craving,wanting to be right next to you
However, your presence evoke all the pain you cost me.

Secret Place

Where do I begin?
When will this madness end?
I sat motionless on the library desk
while my mind was busy roaming, traveling to an unknown place.
A place which has serenity and selfless liberation,
Having a great need to share the secrets of these place with this person next to me.
I feel like sharing will bring great fulfillment,
Enhance the natural connection of our own excitement,
I am afraid that you will react differently,
Your stubbornness would restrict you from feeling this pure happiness.
Can you hear the soft music that we create with our bodies,
We need not said anything,
Let’s just free our soul and enjoy the song created by our heart beats.
It sadden me that it will take time for you to understand,
accept reality and act neutral towards this situation
Do you believe that whatever we share is real?