Untouched surface

As I let the truth to surface,
Realized that Im setting myself free,
Changing the way I behave,stop choking me….
I want to breath the air of liberation.
You just add a dose of a lifetime celebration.
Change of season restore my sense of belonging,
Chose to unplug the root of infinite possibilities,
Confusion tied me up to prevent me from engaging in any movement.
Slowly the seed that was planted dies in a nurtured soil,
As ridiculous it may sound, haunted by a vivid image of ancient times.
played innocent like a small child
My isolated space becomes my refuge,
Tormented by the sweetness of my memories,
Suffocated myself with wasteful pretendence.
yet seeing the light through my darkest moments.
Change came knocking on my door,
thought I locked it but then came crawling slowly on the floor.
Enriched my troubled soul with so much hope,
My imperfections renew my common sense,
Who am I fooling?
My vulnerability was painted on my walls,
Immense beauty of my charm was reflected through my attitude.
I am just too different
Nobody understand me better than him….
My past became an untouched surface
Yet today I still relate to the person I was ten years ago.
God had just nurtured the seed planted in me,
during spring time I decide to blossom so care-free.

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Self Actualization

I’m afraid to cross that border between my past and future,
I have buried the hatchets
Simply living my life in harmony,
I do not need the next party to justify my own happiness.
I’ve taught myself to embrace the essence of oneness,
I’m not trying to be ignorant,
I am accepting the correlation factors of my independence
No need to argue with the next person about your uniqueness
though he might find it strange.
You understand it perfectly well.
I don’t feel depressed when I fall,
I trust myself that I wiil recover, regroup and carry on,
My life evoke mixed emotions like a classical song,
Created with lots of tunes, melodies that are blended so perfectly
like my cup of coffee,
A song without words, yet easy to be understood.
Building a strong foundation of the awareness of my emotions,
Keeping me sane while I’m troubled by this world pain.
Slowly healing my internal wounds
No need to see a doctor,
Acceptance, perseverence will do its wonders
Enchant my soul with everlasting magic,
I don’t curse the sun for rising everyday
I feel disappointed on myself for not achieving those little goals
that felt meaningless at the time
yet very important at this present moment,
baby steps will eventually get me there…
reaching the peak of my self actualization process keeps on occuring without an end.