Ghosts

Some ghosts are not easily laid to rest.

They decide to exhume without warning,

exposing their existence uninvited.

Especially when you begin to enjoy your peace.

Although you have buried them deeply underneath the rocks of concrete.

They refuse to stay there.

Then they come banging at your door

Expecting a warm welcome.

Even though you chose to leave the door locked

They find a way to come back

sneaking, peeling off the layers of the concrete

They are like terrorist with a mission to destroy.

Carrying an atomic bomb filled with hostility.

They know nothing but war.

Obedience is marked by death

Serving a higher purpose

Who is their Master?

they thirst for blood, pain and despair.

Your downfall gives them great pleasure.

Do not fell threatened

You are not entirely alone.

You are protected by the most powerful, most loving and most caring being.

The past always haunts us especially if there are feelings which you haven’t dealt with during that time. Letting go is not easy hence it takes time. Therefore, everyday I give myself time to reflect back and try to find a way to forgive myself for the things I could have done differently thus embracing the lessons which comes with it. This is a journey. Forgive yourself and be thankful you are given a second chance which is the present moment.

P.S You are beautiful and strong.

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Quote of the day No.1

How can I write your name in the sky when you broke my wing?

Im dragged down by your gravity of deceptions and hate.

You like it when Im on the ground.

Though you have taken some part of me.

You didn’t take away my heart.

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I wish I knew what he meant

I wish I knew what he meant
I wish I knew what he meant when he told me he loves me
I have heard those words for thousands times
Now I do not know their underlying meaning
They carry the burden of doubts
Dining on the table of deceit
Feeling unsure what exactly is on the menu
Allow thy self to be broken into pieces
Walking through a path of understanding what you really want…
Hiding the scars of my past with my smile
Reshuffle the memories I thought we both shared
Searching for the dirt underneath the carpet
The carpet which covers the truth which we are too afraid to share
Jailed by your incredible charm which looks harmless
Yet I could sense the danger its breathes
I am a bruised angel; I cannot use my wings to fly to you
You are so far away, I can’t reach you
One moment you come all tender and after you are as cold as an iceberg
Do not assume that you understand my silence
I have dressed it with a soft fur but if you look closely it’s full of thorns
I want to go back to where it all started but I really can’t turn back the heads of time.

LIFE

life goes on with the pain from yesterday
leaving scars as the remembrance of the journey traveled,
enjoy the ride of the rocking chair
Listen to the lullaby of crashing cars,people cries,painful screams
which comfort your soul as you hear your heart beating
The vitality of the message could not be found from the speakers
You need to contribute your own connotations to the overall message
Do not dilute its significance
Deepen your thoughts, you will understand
Take a closer inspection
Finally enjoy the fruits of the greatest lesson,
Getting your ready to face your own monster which lives inside your closet.
Realization is an all or nothing game.
It can either break you or make you
Some issues are unavoidable
they exist to makes us fumble
but never let them to make you feel detached from reality.
Predictions only spoil the fun of the adventure.
Making you live inside of little boxes
Nurturing you with the veil of your comfort zone.
You are the only one who can unleash the underlying secrets of the universe
Discovery could be done alone
Although the delicacy of other hardships will push you to the core,
but who said you cannot score a goal (Player)
The desire to live happily ever after makes us trapped in fairy-tales.
Fairy tales widen your mind,strengthen your belief but it doesn’t help you to climb
the ladder to reach the peak of the mountain
It settle you down to indulge in the sweetness of the fountain.

Unresolved issues of the past

Sweeping them off like dust which appears in places less attended,
Trying hard to hide them away
yet they are most likely to arrive without any invitation,
A scar which remained behind
will always triggered the mind with memories.
memories which the heart desire to forget,
whilst the mind chose not to listen.
Unresolved issues of the past
I cannot underestimate your will to possess my mind,
you refused to be buried,
You chose to be right there beside me like a shadow,
Following me everywhere I go…
rationality was never your friend,
causing trouble in life is your biggest achievement.
Until we’ve made peace with our quarrel
You will always remain my guest.
And I would be please to be at your service…
I am tired of fighting you
You occurred for a reason
You’ve given me a hell of a nightmare
But this time
I’ve learnt to stand tall like redwood
looking closely at my reflection on the mirror.
allowed reality to sink in,
realized that I am greater than what you thought,
Kingdom rise and fall
My fall is my victory
I have gained the strength of being true to myself,
my rise is my loss
For the eye will not see what lies beyond measure.
yet it claims to see all…
I refuse to enjoy the calmness of living life with less conflict,
Bitterness is the counterpart of sweet,
therefore the armor of appreciation
will help me grow to be a responsible being,
I have to accept the unexpected
be grateful for everything God had given me.

Wake up call

As I sat motionless at that corner,
Reflecting back my absurd moment of weakness,
Discovered the presence of the beast,
The beast that puts me in shame
Making my life a hell,
Left me in the deepest depth of temptations,
Made me a culprit of the present accusations.
Obtain satisfaction through my short comings
Blameless is he, I ought to fight till the end.

Strengthen myself worth by honoring my principles
Walked barefoot upon the thorns of the valley
Chose to embrace the life-long lessons
Though I’m only human,
Perfection isn’t my closest friend
Tried a lot of things to escape,
Yet the remembrance of disgrace chose to carry on,
This wake up call helps me to move on.
Look at things on a different perspective,
Help me to distinguish between pure love and lust.

Although I might be lost in the wilderness,
God would always find me, guide me through infinite possibilities,
His eyes striving for wrongful delusions’
Desiring to take away what belongs to me
Seeing my rose losing its beautiful features trouble my soul,
It had blossom so lovely during spring time,
I cannot let you take what’s mine
Thanks for playing your part
Sometimes trying to understand the art of temptations could be very confusing,
Yet I thank thee for such a good warning.