Pleasure

I wish I could just smoke off my desires
Allow them to fade away with the wind
carry on like there never existed
they bombard my mind with illusions
Forcing me to make drastic decisions
The monster that lives inside
wishes to be dominant
taking away my sense of power and control
Demanding me to be submissive
Bend down on my knees
Fulfil the Master’s request
Does he care about my own wishes
It seems like we are compatible
yet we enjoy being in trouble
For the sake of feeding this hunger we feel inside
We carry on like we are the only beings which exist
exposing my conquest
Dining with our wickedness
Nothing will come between our romance
He had made me question my purpose of existence
Further shown me the goodness of his dominance
he is an artist
His inspiration comes from the touching and stroking of my breast
enjoying the fruit taken from my clitoris
I wish I knew his weakness
Use him gently for my deliverance
In public we pretend
but in bed we are best friends
satisfying our needs
enjoying the sweetness of our beehives
creating sensual memories that enchant our soul
a secret only known by us…
this is just a beginning of our lovely partnership

WAR

We are at war,
Armoured with only our voices,
A pen and paper our only weapon
Writing our stories,
Stories which will forever remain
within the heart that listen
We are artist,
Artist who paints pictures of reality
Just look closely
Allow your eyes to see the ugly truth that lies within.
Cultivating the soul with all beautiful things.
The picture holds no sympathy
It reveals its ruthless nature unconsciuosly
reflecting the complexity of the critical mind.
The artist doesn’t care about being admired
he only cares about sustaining the reality of his craft.
he is the Soldier
fighting an endless battle
a battle that has no victory
yet its occurrence is satisfactory
It had occurred for long time
taken everything I thought it was mine
made him innocent like a child
he do not know when it began
All he remember is the beautiful sun
The sun that exposed him unto his enemies
leaving them helpless
His craft is heartless
So much blood had been shed
Lots of lesson had been learnt
Inspiring strangers had been met
And he doesn’t feel reluctant to call them friends
They are his family which he never had…
They are his revelation he never anticipated
His words left him uneasy
leaving him in great suffocation
Pleading to find redemption
Then feeding his hunger with great expectations.

Power

The world is saturated with things we cannot control
The ideology of power is held by the law.
then who makes this laws?
loss of power is a terrible loss for all human kinds,
everyday we wish to sail through any challenges
Forgetting that our power comes with a standard,
Float above the ocean of our pain and sorrows,
Ensuring that everyman evaluate us as being strong.
Are you strong enough to carry all your burdens?
Are you made our of steel?
Are you unbreakable?
really you need to think about yourself
Being selfish van be a virtue of better understanding
stop pretending and start acting.

Unresolved issues of the past

Sweeping them off like dust which appears in places less attended,
Trying hard to hide them away
yet they are most likely to arrive without any invitation,
A scar which remained behind
will always triggered the mind with memories.
memories which the heart desire to forget,
whilst the mind chose not to listen.
Unresolved issues of the past
I cannot underestimate your will to possess my mind,
you refused to be buried,
You chose to be right there beside me like a shadow,
Following me everywhere I go…
rationality was never your friend,
causing trouble in life is your biggest achievement.
Until we’ve made peace with our quarrel
You will always remain my guest.
And I would be please to be at your service…
I am tired of fighting you
You occurred for a reason
You’ve given me a hell of a nightmare
But this time
I’ve learnt to stand tall like redwood
looking closely at my reflection on the mirror.
allowed reality to sink in,
realized that I am greater than what you thought,
Kingdom rise and fall
My fall is my victory
I have gained the strength of being true to myself,
my rise is my loss
For the eye will not see what lies beyond measure.
yet it claims to see all…
I refuse to enjoy the calmness of living life with less conflict,
Bitterness is the counterpart of sweet,
therefore the armor of appreciation
will help me grow to be a responsible being,
I have to accept the unexpected
be grateful for everything God had given me.

Hiding through smiles

Why are we fighting each other
while we are fighting the same fight.
Our emotions surge behind close doors,
The truth hung over us like the morning mist,
Try so hard to hide our feelings in the wind.
Slowly blowing through our eyes,
stood next to each other with folded arms.
During the night we sleep on the bed of regrets.
Hide under the blankets of our loneliness.
Dream about the good moments we could share,
the pillow of pretending comfort us.
When the sun decide to rise,
we smile to hide the bitterness locked inside.
Hoping to be together again…
Now is only the matter of time.
one day we will get our moment to shine.

I am a mess

Doing no good when I put myself in a standard
Limitations are the source of dissatisfaction,
Putting myself in little boxes
When the world begins to exercise their comparison games,
with hate…
The heart is troubled, making the migraine unbearable,
imprison my free-spirited inner self
Showing the society what they ought to see.
Never saw a prophet whose younger like me.
painting pictures with words,
dying inside becomes a tendency.
Being late to realize that the truth shall set us free.
Experts establish an emotional connection
making the world believe they’ve got all the answers.
being pushed away,lost count of the battles I’ve fought in my lifetime.
Telling another woman’s son that I cannot live without.
In the meanwhile I’m holding the keys to the house.
He always been a guest.
Gave him everything, fulfilled his requests.
never realized,I was wasting time,
trying to please a heart of another man,
mine tormented with self hatred,confusion stood on my way.
Told him to get out while his scent chose to stay.
Feeling tempted to give him a call,
Realized he doesn’t deserve it.
Let silence be his keeper,
help him to grow, make up his mind
know what he wants.
I’m a mes like him
My troubles are keeping me restless.
NO matter how long it will take me
I shall rise above this bitterness.

This life is a battlefield

As I stood firm upon these earth,
Reassuring myself that I’ve got all the tools,
the strength to conquer this dominant war
My heart filled with so much fear,
Pain lingers in my body veins
like I’ve been stabbed a thousand times with a spear,
I opened my ears so that I could hear,
the sound made by the beast,
only my eye could shed a tear,
The atmosphere invapourated unclear.
holding past memories I could not bear,
i don’t know where I will be at tommorow.
i’m tormented by the events that took place yesterday.
They’ve left me ushaken, left with nothing to say,
I’m taking a journey to a brutal battlefield
only God knows about my survival.
Putting everything I had on the line
Taking babysteps to reach the light,
fear of death, failure filled my soul.
Mother earth had told me the untold.
Striving to carry all the burden that my strength cannot hold,
Holding just the key of hope on my hands.
The woman who had carried me on her womb, gave me a valuable lesson.
A gift I cannot trade with anything else,
She promised to protect me, not forgeting valuable lesson taught by her
I’ll defeat this beast
Fight until I gain my freedom.

Waiting

Patience running thin, feeling anxious
Your mind asking all sort of questions,
A picture so blur, yet to you is very vivid,
Time pass you by,patience enforce better understanding.
Fighting reality seems dangerous
Don’t just stand there in silence,
Your eyes are screaming loudly on my face,
i know you’ve tried to hide the truth anyway,
faith persuaded you to stay,
You carry on like your life is a fairytale.
feeling unsure whether you meant every word you said.
But I still love you anyway,you rejoice over little things.
Some part of me hold me back,
Finding it hard to believe all of this can be real.
Let to believe that you are an angel sent from heaven,
Stood firmly, your ground is never shaken
You waited without any questions
Hope stimulated your passion
Told stories of liberation,
Until when we meet again,
I shall thank thee for your kindness.