Loving someone

Somehow the meeting we had last night
left me with the injustice of my unsatisfied heart.
My mind remembering every event
that took place like my favourite movie,
Every scene being rewinded, feeling the exact emotions,
left me aflame fire burning to resemble the uniformity of loving someone unconditionally.
I hate you for letting me explore the goodness of being held for a long time.
I know that tommorow thats the only only things I would be thinking about…
Losing my concentration.
Now I understand the reason why I keep coming back for more,
even though we affirm ourselves that we gonna behave
for the sake of respecting social norms,
Yet here we are…touching,cuddling up,praising the silence of the night.
Acting like we are the only human alive,
We care less about the consequences of our actions.
Find it hard to resist the temptations,
Sometimes I find myself geting lost into your eyes.
Fantasizing about what we will do if we were lost in the garden of Eden.
The nature that surrounding us would have something to say,
Everytime your presence stir my imagination
which is embedded with curiosity.
Producing an effect only known by me.
Don’t let me question the love I have for you….
Can you heart the beating of my heart,
Perhaps you do not understand the language spoken
Allow me to translate but rest assured it will occur now until dawn.

Mixed emotions

I am troubled by the sudden intense feeling
which makes me long to be by your side,
walk with you, honouring the beauty of the butterflies.
Surely you know how to make me lose myself
yet everyday I affirm to the world that I understand what’s happening…
I sit alone in this chaotic place
Looking at my thoughts running through my mind
like a river flowing through the ocean
seeking for a place to sleep as it always been homeless.
I search hard for what it seems hard to perceive
though the image of your face chose to be right there next to me.
I do not understand how the birds sings
yet I find myself indulging in their extraodinary melody.
Now I understand the impact you had on me,
It is not a disease but an addiction I don’t want to recover from…
Each day you write a new chapter in my heart
making me understand the true meaning of loving and being loved.
This time I want to feel your warm embrace,
hear your voice talking softly in my ears
feel your hands touching every part of my body
releasing the tension from my shoulders down to my spine.
Yesterday our cellphone conversation left me with uncertainty
which gives me a hard time to decide whether this is what I want
because everything feels like a dream
giving me doubtful thoughts of it being real
But I believe every word you said….
Fighting real emotions I have for you
would be like an actor playing a deceiving role.
although I try to deny it
you stil find a way to seduce me,
get me crawling on my knees,
Begging you to unleash the potential that lies inside me.
Someday I will forget your name
but its gonna be hard to forget the memories we’ve made.
Till we meet again.

Random conversation

Just by sayin “Hi” you open a door to new possibilities.
A smile from a stranger shape your thoughts in a different way,
Conversation lasted for few minutes gives your life a new meaning.
You don’t know this person by name
Yet you feel like you’ve known each other for years.
God is great and act in mysterious ways.
You’ve struggled to pin point that one aspect during the time of confusion,
Therefore a soul came to you,
Sharing his gift (wisdom) with you
You will forget his face, yet remember every word he said…..
Surely we walk pass angels everyday unaware,
our eyes limiting us to see the greatness that lies within this unknown soul.
Never underestimate random conversations shared with a stranger,
Sometimes you don’t need a friend to comfort or brighten your day
Someone you met at the grocery store, at the park or at school could unleash hidden treasures of life,
Everyday there’s a lesson to be learnt
A mistake to be rectified,
A laughter to be shared,
A memory to be cherised.
Juts give yourself time to listen,
Listen closely to the beautiful sound created by this unknown pianist,
He plays the music which seemed to be unknown
Today his music will sound unfamiliar
but tommorow you’ll understand the meaning behind his composed melodies.
Embrace the mysteries that comes with your human senses
The creator had a purpose of giving you such an extraodinary gift,
Be grateful, learn to cherish those little things.

Untouched surface

As I let the truth to surface,
Realized that Im setting myself free,
Changing the way I behave,stop choking me….
I want to breath the air of liberation.
You just add a dose of a lifetime celebration.
Change of season restore my sense of belonging,
Chose to unplug the root of infinite possibilities,
Confusion tied me up to prevent me from engaging in any movement.
Slowly the seed that was planted dies in a nurtured soil,
As ridiculous it may sound, haunted by a vivid image of ancient times.
played innocent like a small child
My isolated space becomes my refuge,
Tormented by the sweetness of my memories,
Suffocated myself with wasteful pretendence.
yet seeing the light through my darkest moments.
Change came knocking on my door,
thought I locked it but then came crawling slowly on the floor.
Enriched my troubled soul with so much hope,
My imperfections renew my common sense,
Who am I fooling?
My vulnerability was painted on my walls,
Immense beauty of my charm was reflected through my attitude.
I am just too different
Nobody understand me better than him….
My past became an untouched surface
Yet today I still relate to the person I was ten years ago.
God had just nurtured the seed planted in me,
during spring time I decide to blossom so care-free.

This too shall pass

Life is dictated like changing seasons,
Lack of affirmation,
Hungry for love, being ruled by the current situation,
Loving someone is a mysterious condition,
Doing everything in your power to feel thee satisfaction.
This condition comes with fear,excitement,sadness and disappointments
If you don’t understand love, later it will kill you.
This too shall pass,
Our journey intersected,
we’ve done things under a bad influence,
trusted each other, believing we can close our emptiness
Forgeting that our actions will make us get lost in the wilderness.
I thought that bringing you into my life will bring happiness.
I was wrong, the mist have already fill the room.
My eagerness had push you away
Its strange that we both created debts
but now I’m the only person left to pay
The melody created by our body closure strikes me the most,
I’m too delicate and fragile for carrying all this load.
Who shall declare the deeds that we’ve done?
The lust of intimacy showen in your eyes
Keeps me restless at night,
I’m prepared to fight
Changing all my wrongs to right
Harvest time is near,
My heart is filled with so much fear,
I’ve left my farm unattended,
shed a tear to ease my heart
No man understand the theory of love.
I’ve made this bed, I shall sleep on it.
my soul is sick with this undefeated war,
guilt and remorse glow brightly on my skin,
He retain his power by me
You are cruel, got such a great impact.
My soul is troubled, bear with my weakness,
Now it is a time to feel soory for myself
our closure could easily be faded.
acceptance could be much help,
Letting go, embracing all lesson learnt.
This too shall pass.
This things do happen,
They might torture you to slavery
But you know how to regain your own glory,
This is just a rising point of your story
Time wiil feed your hunger,
Heartaches makes you stronger.

Self Actualization

I’m afraid to cross that border between my past and future,
I have buried the hatchets
Simply living my life in harmony,
I do not need the next party to justify my own happiness.
I’ve taught myself to embrace the essence of oneness,
I’m not trying to be ignorant,
I am accepting the correlation factors of my independence
No need to argue with the next person about your uniqueness
though he might find it strange.
You understand it perfectly well.
I don’t feel depressed when I fall,
I trust myself that I wiil recover, regroup and carry on,
My life evoke mixed emotions like a classical song,
Created with lots of tunes, melodies that are blended so perfectly
like my cup of coffee,
A song without words, yet easy to be understood.
Building a strong foundation of the awareness of my emotions,
Keeping me sane while I’m troubled by this world pain.
Slowly healing my internal wounds
No need to see a doctor,
Acceptance, perseverence will do its wonders
Enchant my soul with everlasting magic,
I don’t curse the sun for rising everyday
I feel disappointed on myself for not achieving those little goals
that felt meaningless at the time
yet very important at this present moment,
baby steps will eventually get me there…
reaching the peak of my self actualization process keeps on occuring without an end.

This life is a battlefield

As I stood firm upon these earth,
Reassuring myself that I’ve got all the tools,
the strength to conquer this dominant war
My heart filled with so much fear,
Pain lingers in my body veins
like I’ve been stabbed a thousand times with a spear,
I opened my ears so that I could hear,
the sound made by the beast,
only my eye could shed a tear,
The atmosphere invapourated unclear.
holding past memories I could not bear,
i don’t know where I will be at tommorow.
i’m tormented by the events that took place yesterday.
They’ve left me ushaken, left with nothing to say,
I’m taking a journey to a brutal battlefield
only God knows about my survival.
Putting everything I had on the line
Taking babysteps to reach the light,
fear of death, failure filled my soul.
Mother earth had told me the untold.
Striving to carry all the burden that my strength cannot hold,
Holding just the key of hope on my hands.
The woman who had carried me on her womb, gave me a valuable lesson.
A gift I cannot trade with anything else,
She promised to protect me, not forgeting valuable lesson taught by her
I’ll defeat this beast
Fight until I gain my freedom.

Waiting

Patience running thin, feeling anxious
Your mind asking all sort of questions,
A picture so blur, yet to you is very vivid,
Time pass you by,patience enforce better understanding.
Fighting reality seems dangerous
Don’t just stand there in silence,
Your eyes are screaming loudly on my face,
i know you’ve tried to hide the truth anyway,
faith persuaded you to stay,
You carry on like your life is a fairytale.
feeling unsure whether you meant every word you said.
But I still love you anyway,you rejoice over little things.
Some part of me hold me back,
Finding it hard to believe all of this can be real.
Let to believe that you are an angel sent from heaven,
Stood firmly, your ground is never shaken
You waited without any questions
Hope stimulated your passion
Told stories of liberation,
Until when we meet again,
I shall thank thee for your kindness.