We are never ever getting back together

I remember the bitter sweet taste of your lips when we kissed.
The lie you told when you said I was the only one

The forced laugh you uttered when I confronted you.

Your charming eyes drew me closer to the whirlpool of your narcissistic nature.

A confusing love portion which made me to see the saint in you. 

Drowned deeply into the darkest parts of your troubled soul. 

Normalized all your shortcoming because I was so forgiving and understanding.

Making promises that didnt materialize.

Truth be told…I am a sucker for cold hearted lover.

I was convinced that you came into my life with a bundle of hope and happiness.

I failed to notice the devil in you.

I am dealing with the injustice of your theatrical show you pulled when I was at my lowest.

Please dont come back with your excuses that you are now I changed man.

You admit your shortcomings and you are willing to do things right.

There is nothing to amend,

Thank you for bringing out the worst in me.

Thank you for changing me

Now I know the devil doesnt have horns and a tail.

The real devil is right here standing next to me.

Breathing the air that I breathe.

Dare to dream

The urgency to knock on doors that are already closed
Hearing the wall clock ticking; telling you that time is the essence
Stood face to face with a shadow that haunted you since childhood
A dreadful nightmare constantly troubling you even after therapy.
Running deeper unto dreadful childhood memory
A familiar smell triggers your psyche
You just can’t stop yourself from going right back there.
Why are you so afraid?
You were not coerced to relive that nightmare,
You took a pledge and there is nothing liberating than facing your deepest fear.
Vulnerability remains to be the antidote that will save you
Challenge yourself even further
Study all those grey areas in your life.
Seek the serenity you have lost
Chaos and regrets pushes you further into the darkness.
Forgive yourself and dare to dream; to reach the core of your soul.

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This game of emotions we play

Save yourself from this mindless adventure
The chills and thrills only last for awhile
We remain blinded by superficial love
Lust that lead us into disastrous action
Leaving us wounded with regrets
Nothing taste so bitter like the lies we tell ourselves.
Sharing nothing but empty promises
Cold kisses and strokes leaving our bodies numb
We chose to walk through the path that led us to the tombs
Failed to understand, ignored the signs, living in ruins.
We lost the time to discover the sacredness of our company
Chose to engage in continual destructive activities
Foolishly falling into the trap of senseless gratification.
Fed our wild egocentric nature with circumstantial infatuation.
Tell him nothing but the truth
He was just another victim of your cruel games of emotion
Bitter black woman on a mission

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FORGIVE THY SELF

Forget the tragedies which makes you bitter
Overcome the odds of breaking your heart once again
Remember your past mistakes, learn from them
Give yourself time; don’t be hard on yourself
Invest your energy on things which will yield beneficial results
Valuable lesson are learnt through heartbreak and failure.
Eliminate threatening situations

Take care of your heart
Hold on to your intuitive eye; it’s a precious gift
You shouldn’t give up

Seize this opportunity before it is too late
Embrace all your faults and virtues
Live your life to the fullest
Fulfil your heart desires; your happiness is your responsibility.

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04/06/2016

Denied feelings
Mind thinking
Intense longing
Confusion consuming
Hope descending 
Distance loving
Secretly wishing

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His intimidating
Eyes looking
Pride ruling
Ego overflowing
Patiently waiting
Someday we’ll start talking
Hope that we will be listening

The love battle

Please don’t get close to me
The proximity between our bodies
Makes me uncomfortable
Your presence beautifully suffocates me
My body longs for your touch
Your tender hands electrifies my deep sited desires.
Your arms took me in; a remedy of my solitude
Patiently you waited,
Amazingly you listened and understood
Unexpectedly you took charge;
Pity I was fighting you every step of the way.
Sadly I left you wondering; ego wounded
Dangerously I fell deeper into your spell
Secretly I want you
Stubbornly I refuse to listen to the heart-soothing melody of your pounding heart,
Pleading me to give in… lose myself within your tenderness
Softly you spoke….your words reassuring.
Willingly you acted, I reacted
Then shyly my troubled soul drowned in your sweetness
Warm bodies
Relentless desires burning us vigorously
Delivering us from the thirst and hunger of our broken souls.
Wakening the urge to curb our reckless behaviour.
Someday we going to find each other
The battle of the heart and mind will be conquered.

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2016/04/08

The heart has no boundaries
It seek its own pleasure in ruins
Despise being shunned.
Bow down before deep darkest longings.
Uncertain about its own jurisdiction.
It is always kinetic,lacks the awareness of peacefulness.
Enjoy playing dangerous games.
Pounds vigorously when you hear his name.
Blind folds you with an exaggerated need for passion.
Provoke you further if you dont take its plea seriously
Carelessly representing you as a psychopath.
Pulling you closer to madness
Dragging your name through the mud.
Feeding the wolves with your flesh (dignity).
Reaching, reaching deeper to get the sense of gravity.
Manipulate the mind and body to satisfy its own delusions.
Remains ungoverned until it exposes your weakness
Found solace from wandering in the wilderness
Easily tempted, living with the curse of loneliness.
Driving your thoughts too far away
Depict you as a lunatic.
It doesnt understand the language of waiting
When it want, it want it now
Immediate gratification.

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Dear *******

Im overwhelmed by the deep sited desire
The desire to dig deeper into your mind,body and soul.
What makes you tickle?
I want to know you better
You’re such a fascinating soul.
A mystery waiting to be exposed.
Tired of chasing your shadow
I want to know the real you.
Yet Im tormented by the fear to get closer
The ravenous hunger to love propels me to endure flames,
The burning passion that I see through your eyes
I am shunned for not speaking the truth
Remembering all private vacations I took when I was thinking about you.
My suitcase full of untold tales
heavy burden,packed neatly to hide the lonesome of my bleedibg heart
the chaotic scenes taking over my thought process
Chose to sit in silence
Admire you from a distance
Toy with your thoughts with pretence
Our ignorance offer sanity,
Again, our ego shall grant us the company we need.