A Part of me

A soft smooth melody fill the atmosphere,
making me feel at ease,
Experiencing the hardship to express our real feelings
The beautiful colour of the sun light up the room
silence captures our consciousness
through the midst of our emotions
We became one like the stars that glitter with pride at night,
I want you to understand me,
leave behind our differences.
Put yourself in my shoes,
Don’t be in my life
become a part of me.
Is that toom much to ask?
I want to teach you how to cherish little things,
Little things that has great meaning,
I want you to leave outside your skin
enjoy the gentle breeze made by the wind,
embrace the world with its natural forces,
searching for new possibilities
Smile at your own reflection without feeling any shame,
Walk barefoot, lie on the grass
accept that things will never be the same, yet your footprint will remain
on the sand of the unconscious, write your name on the sky
Dream all wonderful dreams. capture emotions that seems impossible to feel
Allow your senses to set you free from the darkeness of your sleep
Let us be one,understand the fundamentals of being loved.
Everyday I still miss u more.

This too shall pass

Life is dictated like changing seasons,
Lack of affirmation,
Hungry for love, being ruled by the current situation,
Loving someone is a mysterious condition,
Doing everything in your power to feel thee satisfaction.
This condition comes with fear,excitement,sadness and disappointments
If you don’t understand love, later it will kill you.
This too shall pass,
Our journey intersected,
we’ve done things under a bad influence,
trusted each other, believing we can close our emptiness
Forgeting that our actions will make us get lost in the wilderness.
I thought that bringing you into my life will bring happiness.
I was wrong, the mist have already fill the room.
My eagerness had push you away
Its strange that we both created debts
but now I’m the only person left to pay
The melody created by our body closure strikes me the most,
I’m too delicate and fragile for carrying all this load.
Who shall declare the deeds that we’ve done?
The lust of intimacy showen in your eyes
Keeps me restless at night,
I’m prepared to fight
Changing all my wrongs to right
Harvest time is near,
My heart is filled with so much fear,
I’ve left my farm unattended,
shed a tear to ease my heart
No man understand the theory of love.
I’ve made this bed, I shall sleep on it.
my soul is sick with this undefeated war,
guilt and remorse glow brightly on my skin,
He retain his power by me
You are cruel, got such a great impact.
My soul is troubled, bear with my weakness,
Now it is a time to feel soory for myself
our closure could easily be faded.
acceptance could be much help,
Letting go, embracing all lesson learnt.
This too shall pass.
This things do happen,
They might torture you to slavery
But you know how to regain your own glory,
This is just a rising point of your story
Time wiil feed your hunger,
Heartaches makes you stronger.

Self Actualization

I’m afraid to cross that border between my past and future,
I have buried the hatchets
Simply living my life in harmony,
I do not need the next party to justify my own happiness.
I’ve taught myself to embrace the essence of oneness,
I’m not trying to be ignorant,
I am accepting the correlation factors of my independence
No need to argue with the next person about your uniqueness
though he might find it strange.
You understand it perfectly well.
I don’t feel depressed when I fall,
I trust myself that I wiil recover, regroup and carry on,
My life evoke mixed emotions like a classical song,
Created with lots of tunes, melodies that are blended so perfectly
like my cup of coffee,
A song without words, yet easy to be understood.
Building a strong foundation of the awareness of my emotions,
Keeping me sane while I’m troubled by this world pain.
Slowly healing my internal wounds
No need to see a doctor,
Acceptance, perseverence will do its wonders
Enchant my soul with everlasting magic,
I don’t curse the sun for rising everyday
I feel disappointed on myself for not achieving those little goals
that felt meaningless at the time
yet very important at this present moment,
baby steps will eventually get me there…
reaching the peak of my self actualization process keeps on occuring without an end.

This life is a battlefield

As I stood firm upon these earth,
Reassuring myself that I’ve got all the tools,
the strength to conquer this dominant war
My heart filled with so much fear,
Pain lingers in my body veins
like I’ve been stabbed a thousand times with a spear,
I opened my ears so that I could hear,
the sound made by the beast,
only my eye could shed a tear,
The atmosphere invapourated unclear.
holding past memories I could not bear,
i don’t know where I will be at tommorow.
i’m tormented by the events that took place yesterday.
They’ve left me ushaken, left with nothing to say,
I’m taking a journey to a brutal battlefield
only God knows about my survival.
Putting everything I had on the line
Taking babysteps to reach the light,
fear of death, failure filled my soul.
Mother earth had told me the untold.
Striving to carry all the burden that my strength cannot hold,
Holding just the key of hope on my hands.
The woman who had carried me on her womb, gave me a valuable lesson.
A gift I cannot trade with anything else,
She promised to protect me, not forgeting valuable lesson taught by her
I’ll defeat this beast
Fight until I gain my freedom.

The injustice of the mirror

There she is…standing infront of a mirror,
Looking at her reflection with intense eyes,
cursing the reality under her breath,
Wondering what would it be like if a little inch of her body was reduced,
Choosing an outfit took forever,
Time is not on her side.
Her thoughts are fighting the injustice of the mirror,
She is tempted to cancelled her date,
but she doesn’t want to disappoint the heart that asked her so generously,
She is so blind to realize the beauty that lies within herself,
Slowly observing the scar under her breast,
Wishing it never been there….
It reminded her of the tragedy that occurred during her teenagehood,
She tries to sweep away this disturbing thought with a smile,
Hearing her pounding very loudly,
Taking a deep breath, allowing the scent of her perfume to unleash her cheerful mood,
From a distance she could see her mother smiling at her, telling her how beautiful she looked….
Suddenly chose the dress, arrange her accessories,
eventually she was out of her room with a positive state of mind.

Waiting

Patience running thin, feeling anxious
Your mind asking all sort of questions,
A picture so blur, yet to you is very vivid,
Time pass you by,patience enforce better understanding.
Fighting reality seems dangerous
Don’t just stand there in silence,
Your eyes are screaming loudly on my face,
i know you’ve tried to hide the truth anyway,
faith persuaded you to stay,
You carry on like your life is a fairytale.
feeling unsure whether you meant every word you said.
But I still love you anyway,you rejoice over little things.
Some part of me hold me back,
Finding it hard to believe all of this can be real.
Let to believe that you are an angel sent from heaven,
Stood firmly, your ground is never shaken
You waited without any questions
Hope stimulated your passion
Told stories of liberation,
Until when we meet again,
I shall thank thee for your kindness.